I recently took a self-imposed break. I was worn down, both physically and mentally, and everything I was doing to compensate for being worn down was only masking the problem, not fixing it.
I tried strength training to strengthen the muscles around joints that were sore. I figured my hurt knees could benefit from stronger quads and hamstrings. And my overused swimming shoulders needed pull-ups to keep things going. It worked for a bit, but then I was just even more exhausted. I was sleeping for 12 hours each night on the weekends, when I finally had the time to crash and catch up, and then it was time to start all over again the next week. I was functioning out of habit, but was in danger of actual injury or a hard crash.
So I told myself that for 2 weeks, I'd stay away from the pool and the gym. I allowed myself to go on walks, and do yoga, but generally I was just trying to rest.
So of course I had grand plans of becoming a yogi by the end of it, and making a million recipes to be saved up in the queue to post here. By day 2 I was already antsy for the 2 weeks to finish up so I could get back to my routine. But by day 4, I was feeling so much better. I had time to go on walks with my parents around the bike paths in town, and wasn't harried to make dinner after the gym each night. I marveled at how much time there was in a day, and kind of reveled in it. I read some books, caught a couple movies I've been meaning to watch, and learned how to sit down again.
Two weeks ago I was close to tears just thinking about the laundry I needed to fold, and now I can honestly say I feel much calmer and rested. I know not everyone can just shut down for 2 weeks, so I hope you're not annoyed with me... But it helped me see the power of giving myself a rest, and not piling on more to compensate. I guess the title of my blog really gave it away from the beginning- I get used to repeating without question, but it looks like sometimes I should just chill out a bit.
We'll see how long this lasts, hahaha. But I will say, I was super excited to swim this morning! I'm not cured, I still have some things to work on, but at least I'm rested now!
I added some random pictures to this post of things that have made me happy recently. They might not have been directly related to taking 2 weeks off...but I hope you enjoyed them anyways.